I'm not in control. Seems like a general statement that most of us would agree with. But in reality, we all try to control areas of our life, whether it be how clean our room is, what we look like, or the people around us. As for me, I blame myself when people move on to new stages of life. I blame them "abandoning" me on myself, on some failing of mine. But I'm learning something. (Slowly, alibet, and with the help of many people) I'm learning that I am not powerful enough to be responsibile for other people's actions. I am not powerful enough to protect them from their choices. It is not my fault when people in my life choose to step out of God's will or make dumb choices. I am not responsibile for their actions. I am responsible for my actions. I am responsible for puting the blame of other people's choices on my own shoulders. All the while I have a heavenly Father who shakes his head at me and waits with open arms for me to give u...
So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:17-19