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Something Heavenly


Right now my life is easily summed up in these words.

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

[Chorus]
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

[Chorus]

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out

These lyrics are from Sanctus Real's Song "Something Heavenly". But honestly, my life is total chaos right now. I graduated back in early May and since then I've barely had a moment to breath. I started a job back in late April and was working three days a week, we've now moved that to two days a week as of this last week and honestly- I love having the extra day home, it gives me the room to have time to breath, have my space. But I love my job! I work with two kids two days a week, and they're the cutest things on the face of the earth. :) No matter how rough of a day it's been, I would never give it up! :)

I've been car shopping! Actually my mom has been car shopping, it's wayyyyy too stressful, like really. :p We've looked at three cars that were well... not so great. :p We've actually moved into looking at vans. We're actually going to look at a van tomorrow morning! I'm excited. this *might* be *the* van! I hope. :) I'm tired of car shopping, and my mom's been doing all the work! If I've never mentioned this before, I Love my mother, no other mom can compare to the epicness of mine! 

Right now my biggest mental adjustment is this. I turn 18 in a week. o.o oy. I'm OLD. like really! I shall spend this next week as an FCA Huddle leader, then I shall turn 18 on Friday! I can't wait to register to vote!!! I've been looking forward to voting since I was 12 and I am SO EXCITED! :D I know so many kids who's excitement about turning 18 was to be able to gamble. Honestly, I'd rather keep my money wisely and be a good steward of it gambling has no charm to me, at all. I've learned much from my parents and Dr. James Dobson. :) But voting? I've been looking forward to that since forever!

But my life has been absolute chaos in so many ways. I keep wondering how everything seems to fall together, and then these lyrics come to my mind "Whatever you're doing inside of me/It feels like chaos but now I can see/This is something bigger than me/Larger than life something heavenly" It is chaos, to me. But see, my God? He's a God of order, I have nothing to fear, my God makes order out of a seemingly chaotic mess. He sees the whole picture, I see one puzzle piece.

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